Hot Grieving MILF is feeling better today (Okay, so I am still a wee bit uncomfortable with that name, but at the same time, it makes me smile. I’ve learned that when your friends give you a name, you gotta roll with it).
I took my housemate’s advice and started my day with positive affirmations. The one he suggested starting with is here. It really helped to ignore my incoming messages, texts, emails, etc., the night before and start my day with some hippie positive messages, spoken in a beautiful voice with a cool accent. I had been awake for about 90 minutes when I finally jumped in and checked out what was going on in my world. There were some challenging things to face, and I am glad I waited till I was awake and alert to tackle them.
With grief brain, everything seems hard. I was so happy a few months ago, and now I am just struggling with everything. I have let go of some of the unhealthy tools I used to cope with the grief. I am not drinking or smoking, in fact, I have lost eight pounds in three weeks simply by giving up all kinds of sugar. I am exercising again and my lungs don’t hurt. Today I took my first Pilates reformer class, something I have been thinking about doing for a long time. With life feeling like a giant uphill climb these days, the little bits of self care that I am doing are really making a difference.
This shit ain’t easy.